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I'M NOT READY FOR ANYTHING.

Time is going by so quickly. 7 sleeps and a week is gone and the next time I check the calender it will be a new month. I feel like I'm just rushing and running to where I need to get to and I still don't know where that is. WHERE AM I GOING?

They say take each day as it comes and I do that but the days are leaving me behind and I'm so behind.

What if I forget to do something and I regret it tomorrow? Who knows? Tomorrow I might regret today but I don't know that today. So what is there left to do but wait... wait for what? Why am I waiting? I want to move forward, I hate waiting, I want to be doing. But I don't know what to do.

My dilemma is more than a dilemma. It's a way of life.
Everyday the same thing happens and everyday I'm waiting for the answer. I'm waiting for the day when I wake up and I'll know where I'm headed and I'll know what I'm living for and I will know.
Everyday I wake up still not knowing.

People are going to disappoint you. I get that... I kind of expect that, but I don't know... What if you wake up one day and realize that you're the disappointment?